Day 17: How to Be Boring

         My husband called me boring today. It's true I've been called worse. For those of you who don't know me I am an educator with a dry sense of humor, newly married, and unfortunately a millennial. My purpose of writing is to branch out and find other millennials who are desperately trying to be an adult. This is not to say that I am my mother, the picturesque, model woman, because, despite my best efforts, I will never quite get the chorus to sing when I enter the room as she does. All joking aside, I am not my mother. I haven't always made the best choices but am making an acute effort to find a true JOY in life that doesn't come from drinking until I forget how to spell my middle name or through other reckless courses of action. 
          I just want to find JOY. The first step toward an adult life where fun doesn't have to be spelled with vomit, is creating a book club called, "Better Life Book Club." The cliche name alone was thought to bring all kinds of the right adult fun I had been searching for. The first book we (a small group of millennial women on the same path) chose was Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine. Thus began my first adult journey into the realm of wholesome fun.

         The Cons of a Millennial Book Club:  (Cons First because I like my broccoli first)
1.) Half of us didn't read the book or finish the book by the double extended date time we chose.
2.) We lied about finishing the book by the double extended date time we chose.
3.) Two of us dropped out because we have busy lives.
4.) I held a grudge for reasons 1 through 3.

Is this normal? Is this how adulthood should look? A bunch of women pumped to read a book and half of us don't finish it or can't commit to it? I was always taught that if something is important you make time for it. Do we extend the deadline or do we regroup with different women? I just feel so defeated and I don't want to quit because of one little bump in the road. Please send me encouragement so I know what I'm doing wrong or if my expectations are too high (they usually are).

         The Good Side: (Positivity is key)
1.) I successfully read a 325 page book! I haven't done that in 8 years. I usually start and never finish.
2.) I persevered through having to reread certain paragraphs. Sometimes my mind wanders and                  before I know it I've been reading but not paying attention and have to read again. 
3.) I made a new unexpected friendship.
4.) The book was therapeutic for me.

I have to be able to find the good and bad in every project I start. Every activity will have good and bad parts to it. The goal is to find the ones that keep me healthy and at peace. Overall analysis: I will continue to read. As for the book club aspect, I will try one more book and see if we come together or repeat the first scenario. Fingers crossed, we just started off rocky. 

My husband called me boring today. He says he doesn't want to live his life reading books and not having any fun. I've been called worse. I will settle for boring when I have been called many other names that I never want to be held to any more. He might be right and some people may consider this boring but finding joy and fun cannot be done in a single day. For now, I'll take boring, and try to stay away from activities that leave me feeling empty.

From Wendy Darling to Gwen the Daring.